Thursday, 15 May 2014
But more than that, right now.. I feel so much more at peace.
This time last year I felt like I was drowning. I didn't know I was drowning, but anxiety, breathing problems, stress.. they were desperately trying to tell me. I just couldn't switch off. Ever. The 'work' wheel we were on just kept spinning. But it wasn't just the amount of work we were putting on ourselves it was the expectation that I was putting on myself. I was petrified of letting people down.. I was petrified of slowing down or missing out.. I was petrified of physically not being sat at my computer.. just in case.. but what happens if.. but I might miss something..
These past 6 months have been bliss. We've had less weddings and although we've still been shooting other stuff and doing Welcome Home we've had TIME OFF. Real time off.. days where we go out.. weekends where we stay away in nice cottages with friends.. trips to see family.. walks on the beach.. meals out together.. parties.. we've been guests at weddings.. all the NORMAL stuff that normal people do.. and they do it without guilt.. yep.. you read that right.. NO GUILT.. none whatsoever.. because to normal people.. it makes perfect sense. You work a bit and then you have a bit of time off. You work hard and then you relax… and then you work a bit more and then you relax some more. Simples.
And I tell you what. It's AWESOME. I feel like I'm getting to know myself all over again. What do I like to do to relax? I'm not sure if I really knew.. away from the computer.. away from Facebook and Pinterest and browsing blogs.. away from editing images?.. well, it's been absolutely wonderful finding out exactly what I like to do.. and now.. time off? BRING. IT. ON. There HAS to be a balance.. not just for me, not just for Pete.. but for our business too. Every time we come back from switching off I feel more inspired, more energised, more positive, more creative.. and most importantly.. so much happier.